Tuesday, September 05, 2006
SOUL VACATION(:
I AM SO BACK
BUT NOT QUITE OVER CAMP!
I KNOW MANY MANY LOVE-LIES
MISSED ME.
E-FFING LOADS
HAHAHAHA(:
I MISSED YOU ALL TOO!
& I'D LIKE TO SHOUT OUT
THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND(:
friday,happy friday ended
with me going to church,doing stuffs
being nice&
bringing styrafoam stuffs to peter's house
talking to marcus
&he assured he'd wake me up
the next morning at 6am
talked to jared
ate maggie mee(:
watched high school musical,
AGAIN
&fell asleep
admist all joy for the camp
the next day(:
the next morn i woke up
on time
&my dear friend
who bet he could wake early
was late
&i woke them 2 gay friends up instead
i never ate al ameen
so early in the morning before
&i'm having a bad headache now.
CHURCH CAMP
the few as of us
phina,kim,jeanette,olivia,jared,marcus
all decided to be enthu
at the start of the camp!
well well but the starting
ice-breaking games
were kinda boring yeah
&to be truthful
the whole of the first day
turned out kinda bad.
oh
but i remember us playing captain's ball
&it was freaking funny!
chairs were breaking
one after another
i guess sometimes
height comes with a little weight!
hahahaha
after that father&the stoners
were talking to us
bout self image&how we aren't all JUNK
the tears,sharings&stories got through me
i got to think about
how i saw myself
&i decided to give much thought into that
well,
i know that i've changed alot
from a really quiet nut
to someone more who talks a lot more(noiser?)
&i'm glad that people havenoticed that
i was esp surprised that claire noticed that too(:
thank you claire&i love you too!
but i'm quite an insercure lil girl at times
&daren't try new stuffs all alone
ahh & i'm really working on trusting people more.
so please help me(:
people who always appeared smiley
strong,loud and all
were breaking down
cos of family problems
&what they were doing with their lifes
&listening to them,
thinking bout my life too
made me realise that
my family life esp is a lot less screwed up
compared to theirs
&that made me wanna put in more effort
to mantain the joys i have with my family
&work towards imperfections.
it made me understand better
&made me sorry that
i judged them before
&i decided to talk to them more
&affirm them.
i hope that i was
able to add a little more
joy to them(:
i' glad
samuel found a cousin in me too
hahaha
but i know he's super down now
cos his hit by thi realisation
that he can never marry me
hahahaha.JOKE
but the night ended emo-ly
cos everyone just went to bed
in a hush hush tone
&the 5 of us dint even brush our teeth
HAHA.
but of cos we washed up oh so much the next morning (:
i remember the thank you jesus morning prayers
i remember eating 3 pieces of kaya bread
&dilute milo
i remember phina's i dunno what
everything she did to make me smile
i remember kim tan's cheeki-ness
i remember olivia's laughter
i remember jaenette's nice-ness
i remember jared's consideration
i remember all my group members:
i remember how jeremiah had so much to say
i remember aaron's cool-ness
i remember dorothy's quiet-ness but how she opened up&made us happy
i remember danielle's stories&how she dared to talk bout so many stuffs
i remember brandon's quiet support
i remember marcus sharing stuff&exchanging knowing looks with me all the time
&I REMEMBER HOW EVERYONE ELSE MADE THE CAMP A TAD
MORE SPECIAL
(:
i remember writing the letter for my mum&dad.
i remember how i i found that i had to squeeze so badly
to write all the thanks i had for them(:
i remember how much i wrote about working hard
for better relationship
i remember how i told them i'd do anything to make them proud
i remember how i told them i'd earn their trust
i remember how i felt like crying
as i wrote it all down
i remember how charles decided to talk to me
i remembered how he told me that for so long
he'd wanted to grow deeper in our friendship
&that made me,surprised?
cos i felt the same way too
i remember how then
he asked me bout my family&all
&i remember telling him everything single thing
&obviously i broke down
i remember then
how he shared with me
&i remembered how he said there was no need for thanks
he was being the same ol' charles
i remembered how
we all received our parent's letters
i remembered how we all cried even harder
i remembered realising how there were things
we missed out from each other
i remembered jyaas being the tissue man too
i remember antaeus the joker
asking if i was ok
i remembered jared&samuel sitting beside me
all that time
then i remebered playing capt's ball again
&i remebered realising that aubrey
is christian's sister
man!
i know that sweet lil girl loves me NUTS
please wear a pretty white dress for
holy communion alright?
it's only once dear girl
haha.
i remembered how sheila talked to us all
i remembered how lari shared with us
i remembered how jill sat &listened to our sharings
i remembered how aunty angie brought a smile to my face every moment as always
i remembered how justina was being caring
i remembered how jasmine dropped by
i remembered how aunty silvia was always there
i remembered how father woke alll of us up
i remembered how i was so thankful that my parents came
i remembered how much that mass meant.
i rememebered learning the importance of firendship all over again
i remembered learing what friendship really is
i remembered learning lessons for life
& i wanna remember everything forever.
IF WE'RE TRYING
THEN WE'RE BREAKING FREE
YOU KNOW THE WORLD CAN SEE US
IN A WAY THAT'S DIFFERENT FROM
WHO WE ARE.
AMANDA<3
HEART OF WORSHIP}
5:21 PMâ¥
