>ME
amanda
>YOU
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>all that love
*audrey.LOVE<3
*adela
*andrea.snowhite<3
*antaeus
*beverly
*bernard
*cassandra<3
*charmaine
*charles
*cherie
*christie
*clarice
*dora
*dinesh
*enru<3
*jacqueline
*janice
*jeremy
*jessling
*jill
*joscelyn
*larris
*laurie
*lexine
*louisa
*matilda
*nat tan
*nessa
*panpan
*peter
*rachel.bimbo
*sally.waiteng<3
*sean
*shabin
*sharon
*sheryl
*shiqian<3
*suwenn<3
*ugenie
*wanting
*zhuwei
>say what?
Sunday, September 17, 2006
i'm holding on
waiting for your call
it's simple but i can't explain it
i can never please you can i?
it seems no matter what,
you have an undeniably high expectation out of me
which makes me scream ARGH
you want me to soar in everything
yet you want me to focus only on certain things
weird.
you tell me i'mma sensible child
&you never had to worry
but yet you try to protect me
like the slightest sentence from anyone
other than you would break me
haha funny.
you said it yourself
that if i were a goody-two shoes
i can do WHATEVER i want
HAH of cos i could
cos whatever a goody-two-shoes girl wants to do
would be something that fits the mould
&is well strategically correct
isn't it to you?
sometimes i wished
you'd pay more attention to feelings
or even pay attention to feelings at all
rather than what's safe to do
yeaaaaah
when i cry
you tell me it's wrong to cry
when i keep things to myself
you tell me it's bad
when i dont voice out what i feel
you press me to
press me like hell
becos...i dunno why
you like to listen to obvious answers
for questions
don't you?
you bang at my door
till it scares me,for no reason
but i understand that you do it in a moment of wrath
&thinking back it's actually okay really
&i don't believe in
turning my back on everything we have
i don't believe in
talking back to you anymore
since 3weeks ago
i barely said 3 sentences while you yaked for an hr
i tried to make a difference but you don't see it
why?i dunno.nevermind
you said you missed my hugs&kisses
i'm giving them to you everynight now
i tried to tell you the truths
but you shut me up
being truthful hasn't made a difference with you has it?
now what?
no achievement gets an obvious appretiation from you
but a failure gets all of your attention
hah
thank you thanks alot :/
i don't need you to show huge signs of appreciation for me
but i don't need you to
like what?
dress me down too
it's like bringing me up
just to tear me down
which is not very nice by the way
anyway i just want you to be happy okay
hopefull happy when you see me happy
doing what i'm happy with
knowing that that's what i'm all glee about
&already talking it through with me
i'm not gonna give up on anything
it feels like it's time&time again
yet i might try to leave it all behind
i know tmr's a brighter day now
it will be cos
of the love of a mother's
&the love i can have for my mother
which is really AMAZING
SPECIAL
PRETTY
SWEET
now i just need to figure
how oh how do i get through you
what more what more do i do?
THANK YOU <3
XOXOXO
AMANDA.
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