Sunday, August 20, 2006

as swiftly as it seems to pass me by
i never knew i'd remember it so clearly.
the pain i felt inside
was as vivid as those tears you cry.



today,
nothing seemed well the moment i stepped into church.
yes simple has it.
i should have stayed home and only went for cat class.
meeting was terrible.
and yes i greatly realised how much i've lost out to my dear members.
i suck
i can't possibly be some pathetic leader of LW.
i never understood them.
never!
i asked you nicely if you wanted anybody to help
you curtly replied
''nobody's gonna help anyway''
thank you very much
cause it shot through my heart.
i was rudely hurt.
very and i didn't realise those
lone tears streaming down my cheeks.
i was lost,
taken aback by that abrupt answer i thought i was gonna break.
however, your msg made me smile.
thank you for making the rest of the day better.
thank you nessa for being my pillar of strength at that point
thank you manda for being understanding.
man how could i ever survive without being supported.
i am pathetic.
a very big loser.

i'm sick of being the one to cry
i'm tired of all these burdens
i'm only sixteen
maybe being too active kills.
but i still love GOD (:



it's a beautiful
12.46am
20th August'2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING BROTHER (:
love you <3

i'm starting off my day with some snooze
tmr's gonna be better (:
i'm gonna study with jans
and Ming Briges you're my idol.


dear you,
could you love me one more time?


loves<3

-jasintha audrey verena